........

What is this place? Why do we race? Nothings making sense at all. What more can i do? I am still painting flowers for you.

This dream isn't done.

I wanna see your face and know i made it home.

Ice in my veins, blood in my eyes.

You keep the sunshine, save me the rain.

The top gets higher, the more that i climb.

Confidence is a stain they can't wipe off.

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover.

The world, stuck in black and white.

All the bullshit you put me through.

But now I'm sober.

You're one big sugar rush.

I am a river, down in the valley.

Stand up tall, look them in the face.

I am a helping hand, I am a hero.

Hey, I made it.

Where I follow, you go.

But, even the best fall down sometimes.

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.

Even the stars refuse to shine.

Out of the back you fall in time.

Now my clothes smell like cigarettes, but i don't smoke at all.

I was out of line.

I was staying out of my mind.

Life is like an old cassette, that you can't rewind.

No Computor Games

So I'm sitting here in the school library unaware where I'm meant to be...
The football is about to start and our school is making a way big deal about it - it's funny how some things are important to some people whilst to other people it could mean nothing at all.

There are lots of small things that I find important. Most of them have sentimental value but do not particularly have alot of monetary value. It's really weird what we come attached to and what it represents to us and only us. It seems like basic reasoning why we would want something but to others no reasoning could justify wanting it.

An experience, an object, a friend, a lifestyle are all things which mean things to us.

But something we have to remember is that it is not these things that make us up but these are just something that we have chosen to include in our life. These things can change the way we behave, the things we choose to wear and what we want. However these are only vairables in life and this does not define the constant - Ourselves.

Love yourself,
Love your life,
Be happy :)

hi

wassssuuuppp y'alll?

peehee

Ohai. Blexting again, (blogging and texting) ;). Not on a bus though :(
TeLl me, why do things worry me MUCH more when I'm about to fall asleep, but in the morning it's nothinf to worry about?

In the realms of freedom
I hear a voice
I see the ways
from mind and choice
Where worries go
And questions remain
All in all
We're not same
Pictures fly
Around our heads
Causing some panic
Forcing meds
(Well not quite
But maybe so
This little delight
Must now go)

" LOVE JENN

Half Terms around the Corner :)

Only 30 minuites till school ends and then King Edward VI School Year 10 is officially on HOLIDAY! :D

Although holiday is always a good thing I've got a feeling that this half term is going to consist of more work than I would like as I have 2 exams after the holidays. Holidays are different for everyone - some people are constantly doing things and are going out lots. Whereas others prefer to just stay in and enjoy the time alone.

The holidays are great but I usually waste them. Before I know it they are over and it feels like nothing worthwhile has happenend. Every Holiday I make the resolution that this will be a great holiday - something I'll remember. But more often than not this is not the case. This is more proof to me that what we get is never what we expect.

I am expecting that I will be doing lots of revision over the holidays and that I won't go out much and if I do it will be with close friends or family. Maybe the holiday will surprise me and something else will happen but I know it won't.

As a go through life I have noticed a pattern that me and my life follows and it seems that no matter what happens it won't change. Things that matter now won't matter later but they will be replaced by something which is so similar that I shouldn't be able to tell the difference - but I can.

Right I have to go now as soon we'll have to put the computors away and the post will be lost.

Follow your dreams,
Right to the end,
Unless your heart says otherwise,

Love Laura

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i would like to welcome our newest follower.

Not that i don't already know you but Welcome. Welcome to our little realm of freedom.

That is all.
Jenn

MOBILE BLOGGING FTW!

Ok, here I am again, blogging on the bus ;)
It's the best place for it, I get funny looks because it's like I'm texting but for AGES.
Do you ever think this is it?
I know the saying “fuck it“ or “you only live once“
But do we really only live once, I mean if we do actually only live once surely we'd all want to make something of our lives?
Instead of becoming a druggy on the streets right?
Some people our age don't understand what is really/actually important to them.
A lot of people need to question what they do and why they do it.
Arhh :)
Not so hot today, in fact really cold :(
Toodlepips
Jenn x

Heat messes with my Sleep

Can't Sleep. Can't Sleep. Can't Sleep.
Bleh! Heat messes with my sleep. :(
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I LOVE YOU - yes you and also all the other yous I know.

Light from my eco-lightbulb illuminates my room. I look around. I see. I see lots of things. Things which really represent me and things that don't. Things that have meant alot to me and things I just can't let go of. I am not a person who is extroverted and I don't go out alot. This may seem quite boring but not to me. Sometimes you really have to question if what you're seeing is how other people see life. If life really means anything at all and why you happen to see life from your point of view. Why not someone Else's?

Life is sometimes like a dream which you cannot think about too much otherwise you loose grip of reality and wonder what moment you're really in. For example I may be writing this right now but before I've realised this moments over today will be gone and I'll be spiralling into the next day without knowing anything about yesterday.

I am not a particularly big-brained person so I can only imagine what people like Hawkin are pondering all day. Or if they're pondering at all. Life's greatest feat of all maybe to stop wondering and have no questions - to be completely content or maybe that's just ignorance...

Well my Specific Feat Capacity will be all used up well before the ultimate feat is to be acoplished. I'll be one of the people not able to complete even one little feat at all.

Hope you got my line of thought,
What's your specific Feat Capacity?

LOTS of Love
Laura
xxxx
I mean it Love to you.

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAY

recovered my email thingy,
kpeacebai x
toodle pips.

OH LOLS :3

DofE was great, thanks for asking :/
Me and lizzie spoke in the funniest of accents, it's urm because I r cool blud.
I have new shinyshiny shoes :D
Haven't posted in a while :/ so I am here, again on lauras accounty thing :)
Last night I set myself a task to do a sociology essay, business concepts, history source sheet, and biology revision.
I done business and one card on biology, oops. :/
I am currently sitting on
laura's sofa, waiting for her.I need her to hurry up because I would like to get the bus today because I need to do my history homework in reg.
Jinkees it's the creeper!

Toodlepips jen x

I don't know if I've mentioned my sleeping patterns on the blog before but they're very weird. So right now at 12:30 at night it's VERY odd for me to be awake. There is a kind of funny commotion outside right now - I just heard a drunken singing of "OHHHHHHHHHHHH your sex is on fire" LOL. I usually go to sleep at around 8:00 meaning that I get 10 hours sleep minimum.

Have you ever looked in mirror and thought is that really me? Or is it my mask? The protective film that we put up between us and strangers as a sort of barrier to prevent us from getting hurt.

My thought processing is a bit off at the moment - probably due to the time. I can't think properly.

You know the term 'choke up over something' - I learnt what that meant today. You regret something so much you can't breath and you start to 'choke up over something'. Or you miss something so much that you 'choke up over something'. It's a horrible sounding term really choke sounds like you're going to die but hey - it's not a nice feeling after all.

Humans make mistakes - lots of them. You just have to try and learn from your mistakes.

Sometimes I ponder the question - am I anti-social? My thought processing normally leads to yes :( SADFACE. I hardly ever go out and I get very nervous when I meet new people and have to talk to them without a connector friend. :P Bleh - I know everyone has faults but I seem to have quite alot. But I probably see them because I'm me.

My mum gave me some of her exspensive perfume weeks ago and I only just realised it smelt like slightly over-ripe bananas :P.

How do you make new friends? I looked on wikihow and googled it but I'm still baffled. I have friends - AMAZING FRIENDS but I just can't seem to fathom how people make new friends of whom they have no or little connection to.

It's almost one o'clock now I'll probably look back on this tommorrow morning and be like - what does this mean?

I should be sleeping around 5 hours ago.

Every answer leads to more questions,
Don't be too puzzled,

LOVE LAURA
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just took notes on 9 months of work, :)

Business revision done = WIN
Ohey, its jenn :)
Laura's post was a bit emotional :'(
Well, it was for me...
Yes. Business revision all done and dusted :D
I would like to turn laura's post into a song ...
Love jenn
X

P.s. I'm sorry but I actually well like the Jonas brothers :D

Confusion

There are some things that we just can't control and often we are left thinking what we are meant to do, why something is happening, or is this really happening.

By no means am I control freak - I just go with the flow and try to make the most of what I've got. Nowadays though, I am beginning to feel more stressed and insecure. I would like to be a confident person - but I'm not. I just pretend to be. I don't really believe that anybody is confident about themselves all the time. There are people who believe that they're too stupid, or too ugly, or that they're rubbish at making friends. We all have flaws but I have come to believe that our biggest flaw of all is our fixation on flaws. Some people may say that it is a fixation on perfection - but that doesn't exist.

I found some old pictures today and they made me feel so sad. I can't ever be in the same moment ever again my life is just whizzing forward on a journey of no return. Every thought I think, every word I write, I cannot write again in the same space at the same time. I just deleted a sentence but I still wrote it, it's still been wrote and I can't unwrite it simply by pressing backspace.

When a volcano is about to erupt it gives signals and signs to warn you about it. It's the same with everything really, before something big, something that could turn your world upside down, there are signs. Many people would just like to ignore the signs - hope nothing happens. Because some of the time the signs mean nothing , they're not there to warn you. So people may pray that they aren't the erupting volcano, and that their sign is invalid.

There are so many questions I would like answered and so many new things to find out. But the simple truth is - there won't be time for them all.

No matter who you are,
Or what flaws you may have,
You're beautiful,
It just takes the right person to see it,
Love Laura
xxxx

jenn still on laura's account

Watching waterloo road :3
Hells yeah, done my history, maths and sociology work :D
Relaxation :D
Yep, I have nothing to talk about, so urh imma talk crap


Toodlepips :)

jenn doesn't know her email :(

Waiting for bus,
Hmm, paying
On bus :) finally
So I have forgot my email, and my password :(
Tis why it will be saying from laura at the bottom :/
So, hi I'm jenn.
I haven't posted in a while so just to clear thinghs up I am sorry.
And I'm very much alive.
Posting on the go ;) hells yeah (;
Happy birthday Hanne for yesturday
If youtube will let me upload Simba the movie I shall post a link.
But it'll take hours to upload :)

LOVE JENN :)
Not laura x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAN-PAN :D :D :D

Hanne is now 15 !!!!
SO give her some lovin. :D
I Love you hanne :D
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I bet £1 that when you read this it won't be your birthday Han-Pan.
:)

Everyone posted on facebook before me so I was like- I'll be the first to post on the blog :D

Huzzah! Hurrah! Hip Hip Hooray!

LOVE LAURA :D xxxxx

Post 40 :O - THAT SHIT WAS CRACKALACKIN!

Now Han-Pan, your post is not a fail because I read it and used the phrase so now I from this day forward proclaim Thursday the 8th of April's post by Hanne (Mortuseon) a WIN! :D

Today is a momentous day this is the 40th post of the blog. Now you may be wondering why is that such a big deal? Well I don't really have a reason... I only just realised that on the blog page it tells you how many posts the blog has.

Alot of people get hyped up about numbers with 2, 5,1,0 in so I thought: Why are these numbers more celebrated than nice normal numbers. Then I thought: This is the 40th post woooooooooo! A zero makes it special ;).

Right now what's important to me is my friends, my family and (hopefully) passing my GCSEs. But that will all change. In about a year I will be able to get a job and earn money. In two years I will be able to start learning to drive. In three years I can buy drinks and get married and drive legally. In three years time GCSEs won't be important anymore. They'll just be something I was overly worried about in the past.

Do you get Retrospet? When I hear other people talk about the past they always seem to remember the good things and not the bad or the bad things and not the good. I don't. I can't remember it exactly how it is but I seem to have a realist view of the past. I remember bad and good.

Other people have what I have decided to name yonderspect. To them the future only holds good.(or bad) I don't have this either. To me the future is just something that will happen later. Whether it be that I die or that I go downstairs after this post and drink some cranberry juice. It is very likely that I will both of these. It's just some things have to become before others. Like I had to walk before I could run. I have to live before I can die. I have to see before I can look. :)

Well that was just a bit confusing but my head feels better now it's not cramped in their anymore.

Retrospect? Yonderspect?
Respect is a word I can understand. :D

Have a nice day :)
Love Laura

P.S: Hanne is not cold-hearted really she just like to say that so people don't realise that she has emotions. 'I'm cold-hearted' -TRANSLATE- 'I don't want you to know that I can be hurt :(' Anyway Han-Pan can't have a cold heart because she's more of a Summer Princess than an Ice Queen ;)

Dream Catching

This Morning. I just lay there, thinking about nothing. I look up. My Dream Catcher is moving. I got up, expecting my window to be open. It wasn't. My Dream Catcher was moving with no wind. I got back in to bed and lay there smiling. I started to think about all kinds of things, what I should do today, what kind of bird was outside, if the bird was happy.

I looked up the Dream Catchers movements had slowed. It's not so much about the dream you've caught - It's what you do with it. When this blog was started we were going to try something new every day. But we still do. Whether we realise it or not we learn, try, think something new every day. All we have to do is remember that along with the new we need to keep the old.

Even now my Dream catcher is still moving a little. It makes me think maybe there is a little bit of magic left in the world. :)

You don't need a wand for magic,
You just need a little Imagination,

Laura :)

Yo YO YOU Yo Yo (Scooby Doo Quote)

I am currently sitting next to Hanne and we are revising for our science GCSEs. I haven't posted for a very long time still, typing about what I do What I did and How I feel still feels familiar after all this time. I am by no means a brilliant blogger and rarely post. But somehow it feels quite good to post. I always felt that their would be a moment where I would just know what life is about and what I'm meant to do but now I feel quite different...
I feel that life is a pinboard and I am merely a pin holding up a picture. I only have my picture and that is what I can have from life. Some Pictures are more exciting and others just plain funny whereas others still are tragic only just held on by the pin. When our time is over we will be taken off the pinboard and a new picture will take our place.
Sometimes I wish for my life to be more exciting and more adrenaline fuelled. However, now at the moment I am content. The sun isn't shining- in fact it's pouring with rain and I have cold feet because my radiator is a bit dodgy. But I am perfectly content. It could be better and it could be worse but I don't really mind at the moment.

To Anyone Whom May read this,
Hope all your dreams come true,
Love Laura