Confusion

There are some things that we just can't control and often we are left thinking what we are meant to do, why something is happening, or is this really happening.

By no means am I control freak - I just go with the flow and try to make the most of what I've got. Nowadays though, I am beginning to feel more stressed and insecure. I would like to be a confident person - but I'm not. I just pretend to be. I don't really believe that anybody is confident about themselves all the time. There are people who believe that they're too stupid, or too ugly, or that they're rubbish at making friends. We all have flaws but I have come to believe that our biggest flaw of all is our fixation on flaws. Some people may say that it is a fixation on perfection - but that doesn't exist.

I found some old pictures today and they made me feel so sad. I can't ever be in the same moment ever again my life is just whizzing forward on a journey of no return. Every thought I think, every word I write, I cannot write again in the same space at the same time. I just deleted a sentence but I still wrote it, it's still been wrote and I can't unwrite it simply by pressing backspace.

When a volcano is about to erupt it gives signals and signs to warn you about it. It's the same with everything really, before something big, something that could turn your world upside down, there are signs. Many people would just like to ignore the signs - hope nothing happens. Because some of the time the signs mean nothing , they're not there to warn you. So people may pray that they aren't the erupting volcano, and that their sign is invalid.

There are so many questions I would like answered and so many new things to find out. But the simple truth is - there won't be time for them all.

No matter who you are,
Or what flaws you may have,
You're beautiful,
It just takes the right person to see it,
Love Laura
xxxx

jenn still on laura's account

Watching waterloo road :3
Hells yeah, done my history, maths and sociology work :D
Relaxation :D
Yep, I have nothing to talk about, so urh imma talk crap


Toodlepips :)

jenn doesn't know her email :(

Waiting for bus,
Hmm, paying
On bus :) finally
So I have forgot my email, and my password :(
Tis why it will be saying from laura at the bottom :/
So, hi I'm jenn.
I haven't posted in a while so just to clear thinghs up I am sorry.
And I'm very much alive.
Posting on the go ;) hells yeah (;
Happy birthday Hanne for yesturday
If youtube will let me upload Simba the movie I shall post a link.
But it'll take hours to upload :)

LOVE JENN :)
Not laura x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAN-PAN :D :D :D

Hanne is now 15 !!!!
SO give her some lovin. :D
I Love you hanne :D
xxxxxxxxxxxx
I bet £1 that when you read this it won't be your birthday Han-Pan.
:)

Everyone posted on facebook before me so I was like- I'll be the first to post on the blog :D

Huzzah! Hurrah! Hip Hip Hooray!

LOVE LAURA :D xxxxx

Post 40 :O - THAT SHIT WAS CRACKALACKIN!

Now Han-Pan, your post is not a fail because I read it and used the phrase so now I from this day forward proclaim Thursday the 8th of April's post by Hanne (Mortuseon) a WIN! :D

Today is a momentous day this is the 40th post of the blog. Now you may be wondering why is that such a big deal? Well I don't really have a reason... I only just realised that on the blog page it tells you how many posts the blog has.

Alot of people get hyped up about numbers with 2, 5,1,0 in so I thought: Why are these numbers more celebrated than nice normal numbers. Then I thought: This is the 40th post woooooooooo! A zero makes it special ;).

Right now what's important to me is my friends, my family and (hopefully) passing my GCSEs. But that will all change. In about a year I will be able to get a job and earn money. In two years I will be able to start learning to drive. In three years I can buy drinks and get married and drive legally. In three years time GCSEs won't be important anymore. They'll just be something I was overly worried about in the past.

Do you get Retrospet? When I hear other people talk about the past they always seem to remember the good things and not the bad or the bad things and not the good. I don't. I can't remember it exactly how it is but I seem to have a realist view of the past. I remember bad and good.

Other people have what I have decided to name yonderspect. To them the future only holds good.(or bad) I don't have this either. To me the future is just something that will happen later. Whether it be that I die or that I go downstairs after this post and drink some cranberry juice. It is very likely that I will both of these. It's just some things have to become before others. Like I had to walk before I could run. I have to live before I can die. I have to see before I can look. :)

Well that was just a bit confusing but my head feels better now it's not cramped in their anymore.

Retrospect? Yonderspect?
Respect is a word I can understand. :D

Have a nice day :)
Love Laura

P.S: Hanne is not cold-hearted really she just like to say that so people don't realise that she has emotions. 'I'm cold-hearted' -TRANSLATE- 'I don't want you to know that I can be hurt :(' Anyway Han-Pan can't have a cold heart because she's more of a Summer Princess than an Ice Queen ;)

Dream Catching

This Morning. I just lay there, thinking about nothing. I look up. My Dream Catcher is moving. I got up, expecting my window to be open. It wasn't. My Dream Catcher was moving with no wind. I got back in to bed and lay there smiling. I started to think about all kinds of things, what I should do today, what kind of bird was outside, if the bird was happy.

I looked up the Dream Catchers movements had slowed. It's not so much about the dream you've caught - It's what you do with it. When this blog was started we were going to try something new every day. But we still do. Whether we realise it or not we learn, try, think something new every day. All we have to do is remember that along with the new we need to keep the old.

Even now my Dream catcher is still moving a little. It makes me think maybe there is a little bit of magic left in the world. :)

You don't need a wand for magic,
You just need a little Imagination,

Laura :)

Yo YO YOU Yo Yo (Scooby Doo Quote)

I am currently sitting next to Hanne and we are revising for our science GCSEs. I haven't posted for a very long time still, typing about what I do What I did and How I feel still feels familiar after all this time. I am by no means a brilliant blogger and rarely post. But somehow it feels quite good to post. I always felt that their would be a moment where I would just know what life is about and what I'm meant to do but now I feel quite different...
I feel that life is a pinboard and I am merely a pin holding up a picture. I only have my picture and that is what I can have from life. Some Pictures are more exciting and others just plain funny whereas others still are tragic only just held on by the pin. When our time is over we will be taken off the pinboard and a new picture will take our place.
Sometimes I wish for my life to be more exciting and more adrenaline fuelled. However, now at the moment I am content. The sun isn't shining- in fact it's pouring with rain and I have cold feet because my radiator is a bit dodgy. But I am perfectly content. It could be better and it could be worse but I don't really mind at the moment.

To Anyone Whom May read this,
Hope all your dreams come true,
Love Laura